87 Days at home, and my blog went crazy. I have no idea what happened, or why the hebrew here shown as questions marks instead of letters. But I want to write here, so I'm writing in english for now, although i'm not the best in that language. 

My English teacher will be happy ;)

Anyway, English is one of the subjects today. I discovered that I have an oral final exam in three weeks. The class has been starting to prepare for it a month ago, and I had no idea. Dad suggested that I'll talk only English for two days, but I love my hebrew speaking. The teacher told me that we can practice a little together, and also that I'll be the first in the test so I won't wait in school. The problem is that I don't know how I'll be like in three weeks. If I have HP, I'll be on drugs, and there is a good chance I'll throw up during the test. I never throw up in the tests. But this is my last year in school, and if I won't throw up now- then when will I be able to? 

My cousin's wedding is in two weeks. Everyone is very excited. I haven't decided yet if I want to buy a new dress or not. I should, becouse shopping makes me happy. But from the other side, I'm very thin now, and I'm not looking good. That is a problem that new dress might solve; So I probably should buy a dress. Back to the other side, buying a dress now is a waste of money, becouse I'll get fatter soon. 

I think I'll buy shoes. 

And that was a chapter from "The Problems of Being Thin Girl". Stay with us, there are more. 

seriously, I can't understand girls that make themself that thin. I feel cold and weak all the time. I eat every hour ( I mean, I'm trying. It's not that easy). And no, I'm not more beautiful now. Healthy is beautiful. Sickness is not. It's that simple.

Dear future me,  I'm working hard to give you your new weight. Please don't lose it.